I have been back at work for three full days now. 2008 turned out to be a very long year and not necessarily a very good one. I had a nice break at the end of it and I was determined to come back energized, renewed. I was going to be motivated - have a good attitude. And I did. Until today.
It has rained and rained. God knows we need the rain and I have thanked Him for that blessing every day that He has blessed us with it. But I need sunshine. I'm sure He knows that or maybe He is letting me have some suffering that CBT constantly reminds is a good thing. (Thanks, Pastor Randy.) And then there's work. I have frankly had enough of this credit crisis. It's making my job hard. I mean really hard. A big part of what I do is to find debt. THERE ISN'T ANY! I feel better now. (I can't really yell at people at work. It really isn't considered professional.)
Today was particularly bad on that front. Like, expect half the money you thought you were going to get at triple the price and at 10 times the effort. It was really depressing. I really just wanted to go home. And then, and then, James called to say, "Remember when we found a little water in the basement and the roof guy said it wasn't a leak. Daddy and I have made a lot of progress on finding it." Of course, that could only mean there was more water in the basement. And as it turns out, and on the ceilings, walls, and carpets. Maybe I didn't want to leave after all.
It was finally time to leave. It was cold and raining. Accuweather did not predict rain this afternoon, but as I'm driving I see this magnificent rainbow. Actually it was a double rainbow. I snapped a picture with my phone, but of course, the conversion to jpeg won't upload so you'll just have to imagine it. (Your imagination is better than my Motorola any way.) Dark gray skies with the brilliant colors of the rainbow. I think it was the first time I ever saw a rainbow seem to actually touch the ground. The buildings and trees seemed hazy with the colors.
It was a great reminder. Suffering is good because it reminds me that I am not in control and there is Someone else I can and should lean on.
